My Story

I was born mommas yes and daddys maybe
At fourteen we found out I wasnt daddys baby
Now Im paranoid and I dont know who to trust
Im lookin in the mirror starin...thinkin...what the fuck?
Who am I...where do I come from?
Ive been living a lie.
Mommy what have you done.
And Im young so I am askin...what did I do?
I thought that you loved me just like I loved you.
And Im praying to God because Im so confused
Lord help me out...tell me what am I to do?
Then the anger kicks in...I cant believe this shit!
Im thinkin to myself...damn lifes a bitch!
You cant trust a person as far as you can throw em.
It doesnt matter how many years you think you know em.
Then I break down I cant take it no more...tears stream from my eyes
I fall to the floor
Now Im all fucked up...I dont know what to do.
I got no where to run and no one to turn to.
And now Im looking for love in all the wrong places
Searching for smiles from all the wrong faces
And Im doing shit that I really aint supposed to do but it hurts real bad this shit Im goin through
So I roll up the green...light the L...now Im chokin.
Now Im gettin lifted from this chronic that Im smokin
Then my conscious kicks in and says "Cam Whats up?"
Im like " Man I know what you gon say and I dont give a fuck!"
"I got this void in my soul and Im tryin to fill it up...my best friend lied to me now I dont know who to trust!"
Then I hear a voice..."Cam dont play yourself, never settle for less, always love yourself, I know its rough but trust me you can make it through the storm just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep it goin"
So I took that advice and now I see things different
I no longer feel the pain from the anger and resentment
Cuz my mother tried her best to be a mother to me
And my father tried his best to be a father to me
This piece of paper is just a piece of paper you see
The fact that we aint got the same blood dont matter to me
I love you the same...I wont complain
Ill put my life on the line
When I shine you shine.
So I put the pen to the paper...transformed my poetry
I wrote it all down, my inner thoughts and my deepest dreams
The best and worst Ill tell it to the world
Maybe itll be inspiration to a lost boy or girl.